The hardest things are the greatest things.

Well, as you know I had my baby on Friday! It was so nice to finally get that boy outta there.. not enough space for him!
Here's the scoop:
Monday I started feeling really sick. Bad back pain, pelvic pain and contractions here and there. I was completely uncomfortable..
Wednesday night I was having contractions for about 4 hours spaced 4-5 minutes apart.. and then they just stopped, I was so frustrated.
Thursday morning I woke up to pain, but I just figured it was the same pain I had the whole week.. so ignoring my aching, sleep deprived body I cleaned that whole morning. I started getting suspicious so at 10 am I started timing my contractions.. sure enough they were spaced a even 5 minutes apart. This made me want to clean even more because if it was labor I wanted to come home to a perfect house!
At 12 my contractions had lessened to 2-3 minutes apart. But the pain was still bearable. I just had to sit and breath through them. I decided to call the nurse hot line because 2-3 minutes apart and lasting 45 seconds is pretty close together. I really didn't feel like I needed to go to the hospital, and I had put it off all day.. but the nurse said I should go in, especially since I tested positive for Strep B ( a common bacteria pregnant women get), with this you need to get antibiotics through IV at least 4 hours before baby is ready to hit the birth canal..
So finally at 4:00 I called Glen and said that we should go to the hospital. By this point the contractions had gotten a lot worse, but I was told not to go to the hospital until the pain is unbearable.
We reached the hospital at 4:45 ish, and at 5 I was checked for dilation. I expected not to be dilated at all, but my doctor looked up at me, shocked, and said " you're having this baby tonight! you're 5 cm dilated and 100% effaced!"
I started crying instantly, because I needed to get that baby out.. I was in so much pain for weeks, and we had been waiting so long to meet him!
So, from this point it was a waiting game. They were going to check me again at 9 pm for dilation. 9 pm rolled around, they checked and I was still only 5 cm, and the contractions had seemed to get less painful and come less often..
So I asked if I could go to my grandmas.. the nurse was skeptical but let me leave the hospital, we still got to keep our room though.
we stayed there until about 4 am and then I told Glen that we needed to get back to the hospital. I was in a lot more pain, and the contractions were back at 4 minutes apart.
We got back to our room, and I immediately jumped in the tub... I couldn't bare the pain anymore.. so I sat in there for a hour with hot water constantly running.. and then finally my nurse came in and said she was going to check for dilation.
She checked and I was 6 cm! Only 1 cm, but I was making progress!
I jumped back in the tub and from there on out I don't remember much. I was taking gas for my contractions.. and sat in the tub until about 10 am.. crying in between contractions.
Finally my nurse came in and told me I needed to get out because my doctor was going to check me.
I got out, and got on my bed and my doctor came in and said since I had been in active labor for so long that she wanted to break my water and give me the epidural.
So I asked if I could have the epidural before my breaking of water.. she said sure.. and sure enough 10 minutes later the Anesthesiologist came in gave me my new IV in my arm, and gave me the epidural. 15 minutes after that.. it was heaven. The first I had gotten since Wednesday night! I never actually slept.. but my body could relax, it was amazing.
At 11:40 I told my nurse that I had a lot of pressure down there.. and I kept insisting that I felt pressure, and so finally she checked for dilation, and I was 10 cm! I was ready to go. So she called my doctor and told her I would start pushing..
I started, and boy is it hard to push out a baby when you have nothing left in your body! Half way through pushing the pain started to get worse and worse.. and let me tell you, the epidural does NOT block out the pain of pushing the baby out.. just the contraction pain.. and OUCH it hurt.. I remember saying after pushing every time that I couldn't do it. It hurt SO bad. I also remember thinking " why did I not get a c-section".. the baby was basically in my pelvis, so you can imagine how painful that was.
Finally after a hour and 45 minutes of pushing I couldn't do it anymore.. so I pushed 6 times in a row and baby Hudson went SHOOTING out.. at 2:07 pm!
With a second degree tears ( 4 to be exact ), I had to get a hour and a half of stitching.. but it was worth it!!
He was and is perfect!!

I so have a new appreciation and love for mothers. You don't realize how amazing and painful and emotional the process is before you become pregnant.. if you've never done it.. you have NO idea! my included.. I had no idea until Friday..

We named him Hudson Kaed Morris.. he is so tiny, born at 6 pounds 10 ounces ( apparently I have a very small pelvis)

We were supposed to leave the hospital last night, but the nurse said my body was doing well and we left at 3:17 on Saturday afternoon.
Body is still very tender, but nothing can compare to being at home with your perfect baby boy.. it's just indescribable..

Here are some shots of Hudson.

I stole from walmart..

Well, as I said I would post a tad more often, here we go!
Today, much to my delight I walked through the automatic glass doors of Walmart with a bottle of Downy Pleasures.
Much to my delight, I got it for free. Now now, do you really think I stole it?
Lately I've been a penny saver. I clip coupons and look for the best deals. I have been needing some new Laundry Softener, so I went to Walmart to see if they had any deals.
They did! In fact they had the stuff I LOVE, on sale. 3.87 for a large bottle of Downy Pleasures, Fabric Softener in Lavender and Vanilla.
I was so excited! So I grabbed my bottle, and my deodorant, and headed to the till.
We stood in line, what felt like forever.. and finally she rang us through. Except, instead of telling me, 5 something please. She told me 7 something.
Okay, so a two dollar difference isn't much.. but common people, it adds up!
So, she called a price check. Me knowing this would take forever in Walmart land, headed back to the other end of the store to grab the skew for her.
I got to the isle and got the skew, as I got there the price check lady did as well. I guess this softener was on sale last week, and they forgot to take down to sale skew. So not only was the same softener down 2 shelves, it was 2 dollars more.
Me being frustrated, walked back to the till, expecting to pay full price.. when the lady came up behind our cashier and simply explained that since I had found it at a cheaper price, it was their duty to give it to me for free.
So instead of me paying 5 something, I ended up paying 1 something ( for my deodorant), this made my day!
Oh and I must say, it smells so good, I washed my duvet in it and now I can smell it all night long!

Also, I am 40 weeks pregnant this Wednesday, so I will get up a photo then.. wow, really thought this little man would be outta here by now.. but looks like I'm going over due! What a stubborn little boy, like his mama!

Tootles for now.

The Recap.

Well, it's been a while since I blogged- too long! We successfully moved without little Hudson or Paayton being born ( yes, Glen decided he wanted Hudson over Paayton, so it's in choosing at the moment)
We had so much help! Thank you to all who came to help us!! So stress free for both of us.
At this moment we've everything unpacked except for our clothes, but that doesn't bother me as I live in my PJs and Yoga pants.
I am now 39 weeks pregnant and 2 days, time is ticking away, and baby is still snug as a bug in a rug inside.
I have lately decided to go on a endeavor to find out ways to save money. If I said money was tight before, well, it's really tight now.
My benefits got cut, so now we're solely living on Glens income. Yikes, right? Only the tiniest bit of breathing room. So before the child tax kicks in, things will be extra tight.
I was trying to think of ways I could make money, while being a stay at home mom, but I couldn't come up with too many.
I thought of taking in another baby, but I probably couldn't take on another for at least 3 months postpartum..
In some ways it's exciting to be low on cash because it helps you focus on what is real and true.. and it always makes me feel more at peace in my life. But on the other hand, it can be very stressful.
If anyone has any money making ideas, even if it's just 100 bucks here and there, that would be fantastic!
Well, these are just a few of my thoughts I thought I would type down.
We're still waiting for our son to be born and trying to find a good healthy church to grow in. Did I mention that I plan to be Mrs. Morris in the near future as well? We want the most purest and godliest and safest environment for our son to grow up in and learn from.

Well, these are a few of my late night crazy thoughts. Sorry that I've left this blog out in the cold for so long.
I will try to get back to post more often!

Here are a few shots of our lovely home. It feels like a condo on Mount Washington...except more private!

enjoy the last bit.

I realized that all my blogs I've complained about being pregnant. Yes, it's hard, uncomfortable and not ideal, but there are also some positives.
A)People open doors for you, everywhere.
B)People offer to carry your grocery bags for you
C)An excuse to be lazy
D)Get to feel the baby kick, constantly.

and the list goes on.
I realized that in a few days or weeks I no longer will have the excuse or time to sleep in. Regardless if I can't fall asleep until 5 am.
I wont have the luxury of being treated like a "beached whale", when Paayton arrives, he will be the little whale that is waited on hand and foot.
And the waiting process will be over. No more me time, it will be us time.

I need to enjoy every process of life. I too often look to the future, and I need to live in each day!

finally, a full term baby!

Yay! Today I am 37 weeks, which means full term, which also means baby can come any day and be completely healthy and full grown!
So exciting!
I am hoping Paayton stays in until at least 3 days after we move.. that would be ideal. But when do babies actually listen to us?
Basically I move in nine days, so if he stays in until at least then, I am good. I will just be reallllly still, not move, not eat anything crazy and hopefully Paayton decides to stay in his squishy, gushy surroundings.

we are approved!

YAY! Read the title? We are approved!
The place I thought God placed on Craigslist just for me, ended up being, just for me!
Not only is it the cheapest place I could find, it fits all the bills. It's gorgeous, just big enough, we have our own backyard, which backs on to trails and a forest.
We signed the lease, and we're ready to move in, January 30th.
Praise God.. now we just gotta find a way to move all our stuff to Cumberland.

Any takers??

My Baby Shower!

So last night one of my best friends, Erica, blessed me with a beautiful baby shower! I don't have any photos from the night yet, but here's a few shots of ALL of the gifts I was blessed with..
Baby Paayton definitely is well stocked! Also, my mom bought me a Camo Hat and Diaper Geenie as well as a "Mommy Pack" with gels, pads, oils etc for when the baby gets here!
I feel so blessed, I can't say it enough.. Here are a few shots of all the goodies I got!
I will upload some photos of the night once I get them.

Thank you to all who came to my shower!!! It meant the world to me, it was fun.. and good to have you all there to celebrate Paayton's soon-to-be life!